Sunday, November 27, 2011

God Smiles...

"I Praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made!"


God continues to show us His love and provision.
We are excited to welcome the 3rd (and final ;) ) chapter to our lives sometime end of May...
God has given us peace over our decisions, joy in this pregnancy & calm over our decision to proceed with surgery (probably next August) to hopefully permanently resolve the "issues" I have had since Kaide was born.
We are content with the idea of a family of 5.
We are blessed!

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Crankiness Defined & Thankfulness Identified. (as strange as that may seem, it means something to me)

I have seen a lot of "comments" lately about 30 days of Thankfulness in November... although I usually resist doing any of these "groupy" things, I know this is something I NEED to do, because to be honest, I am having trouble feeling very thankful of late...It is easy to focus on the many things that have hurt, frustrated, and burdened us, I need a reminder of the thankful things in my life...I am late, late, late in starting (what else is new)...but thought I would take a shot at it here!

Things I am thankful for:
  1. My husband: since our marriage in 2005, we have been through a lot of good and a lot of bad...he has stayed faithful and loving through it all. I am thankful for his presence in my life
  2. Our kids: sure they have totally changed our life, turning it inside out and upside down...but they are a blessing & joy, teaching us more about God's love everyday. Incidentely, they also teach us about asking for forgiveness, a lot.
  3. Grandparents: you know the kind who: support you as parents, encourage you, stop by to say hi, but don't overstay their welcome, who don't expect you to cater to them, or to bring your children to them, who respect your space & boundaries, your parenting style, your rules, and don't try to force themselves on you or your kids, who understand what it is like to be young, with 2 kids, in school for a master's degree, struggling seriously financially because of other people's poor decisions, with a soccer season which also takes up all our time, who respect that yes, we are busy, but that shouldn't be used as a tool to blame or whine about, who understand that (rightly so) our priority ceased to be the family at large when we began our own family (our priority is US, our marriage, our kids, we WILL be jealous of & protect our time together as a family and we WILL do what is best for us, even if they don't like that it means less time for them), who desire a relationship with their grandkids and work on it, who listen to what you desire for your children and don't criticize it or try to change it, who don't expect you to do things the way they did (you know, maybe it was right for them to spend all their time with the "grandparents" and to let the grandparents do whatever they wanted, and to always go to their house, and to treat them like they were "entitled" just because they had the name "grandparent") because maybe that isn't right for us, maybe just maybe we have ALWAYS been more independent, and maybe we feel you need to earn the respect and trust of our kids, just like everyone else...and maybe because we are ok with only seeing you once a month or less...and you are OK with, because you understand that is just how we are, you don't take it personally, and you RESPECT us....because if we lived in a different state that is how it would be and that is called life, and just because we live in the same town, that doesn't mean we need to use all of our sparse, limited free time on you because we (as people) have needs for time with friends, and time together as a couple/family too and we can't just spend all our time with you. Those are the kind of grandparents I am thankful for because they don't make me feel like I am in trouble everytime I need to say no, or can't be at something, or if I just want to stay home. They are the ones who let me be an independent adult and who understand me ... thank you Nana & Pap-Pap for being that kind of grandparent for us and to our kids...it is a breath of fresh air and makes us want to spend time with you!
  4. A warm home & shelter: because we could be out in the cold & wind
  5. and so much more which perhaps I should leave for another time when I don't have to get Ky from school and K isn't on her 4th day of being super sick and super needy...(see #2) ...

and ps. I am really thankful for all those who may read this post and realize that this blog is not written for anyone but me...it is my space to be able to get things off my chest, to "Say It", hurt/rejoice over it, process it and then move on from it if needed...because goodness knows I could go crazy over here! :)

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Monthly Inspiration...

Recently I challenged myself to try to better organize my life, make better use of my time, and not get myself caught at 530 desperately trying to think about what to make for supper without having anything thawed or the ingredients I need....
I bought myself an organizer that had a monthly calendar and shopping list in it and started planning...
After several DAYS, I finally had it finished...an entire month of menus, both for lunch and supper, as well as complete grocery lists for each week....
I even had a list of things I could "make ahead" and freeze when I had time! and worked likely leftovers into the menu too!
yippee!!
Now, being at the (almost) end of the month, how did I do?
I give this new found organization an A+!
I had meals on the table each day and flexibility to rearrange meals during the week to suit our "cravings."
Best part of all? I finally had time to enjoy cooking again!! Before I barely got supper on the table...this month, I have actually gotten to cook for fun!!
I discovered the blog www.annies-eats.net and recipes like:
  • homemade hamburger buns and the best homemade burgers!
  • chicken parmesan burgers
  • whole wheat pitas
  • pumpkin spice scones with spiced glaze
  • pumpkin spice latte cupcakes
  • baked oatmeal
  • chocolate chips scones
  • chicken rice taco bowl
  • cinnamon scones
  • and so many more I am dying to try!!
I totally recommend trying this to everyone!

Sunday, August 21, 2011

quick summer review

pesto faces
tomatoes!
green beans and grandparents
camping in "style"
beach baby
teaching new things and maybe eventually new loves?
fun fun!
love her!
K was not feeling well...her boys were taking care of her
Nana and her girl
soccer :)
soccer camp!

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

it was (and still is) MY dream.


‎"Everyone is a genius. But if you judge a fish on its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid." - Albert Einstein

borrowed this quote from my friend Jana's FB profile this morning...
pretty much it sums up a lot of what has been on my heart the last couple of days.

Recently, I was told "Well, it wasn't your dream to stay home with the kids."
to say this hit me hard, would be putting things into the perspective above.
Let me clarify:
well before Eric and I had Kyan, we had made the decision to have me stay home with our kids. It was what we both wanted and what I was dreaming of being able to do for our family. I was so excited!! counting down the days!!
Then came Kyan. At first, it was perfect - I made it through labor, delivery, and even day 1.
I was so ready to come home and be a mommy :)
Then we came home, and (yes, feeling like I have earned the right to say) life as we knew, hoped, dreamed fell apart. Emotionally, I was a mess.
Night 1 of being home, we discovered Ky's bump
Day 2 breastfeeding going poorly, latch - what's that?!?!
Day 2 evening Eric gone to video a wedding, home with my parents, exhausted & very sore
Day 3 crying all the time, realizing I am terrified of my child ?!?! Eric back to work..
days are blurring about this point, I am not eating, always crying, waking up in a panic, I have to shower early in the am before eric is even up because the thought of waiting till he leaves has me terrorized, breastfeeding getting harder '- bad because Ky won't take a pacifier and wants to nurse constantly...more exhaustion...more tears...
get the picture?
So suddenly, my dream to be a stay at home mommy is becoming a nightmare.
Why am I terrified of my child? What am I so anxious? What am I breaking out in sweats at the thought of being alone with my child? and why, when my mom tells Ky "look, this is where you live!" is all I can think/scream in my head is "NO YOU DON'T LIVE HERE! This is all a bad dream!"
2 words define my experience with my babies: Post-Partum Depression.
They continue to take place in my life, reminding me of everything I lost...
more importantly though, they remind me of everything I have gained - understanding, wisdom, empathy, and a need to protect (my kids, my husband, my emotional, physical health and self)
So you see, it was always MY DREAM to stay home with my babies.
but I have also realized that sometimes dreams are forced to change...we have to adjust our plans...take care of our emotional selves...
in my case, I had to engage myself in the world - the presence of others - to keep myself from losing it ...
it isn't just ____'s dream...it was just my reality before it was ever her dream.

and on a side note - I work because it seems unfair to dump all responsibility for providing for the family on Eric...without helping in some way...his emotional health doesn't need that unfair stress...so i do something (part time for sure), but something to help relieve the stress on him...because at the end of the day, I have to take care of my husband above all - the kids can wait a minute ... because in my life it is:
God First
Eric Second
Kids Third.

Sunday, June 26, 2011

wanted & loved.

So, apparently more people read this then I imagined...

I was confronted the other evening by a friend about something I had written -
she was gracious and sincere in her comments ...
most of all, she reminded me of a simple fact I too often forget,

"I am wanted, I am loved."

I find myself, perhaps more often then not recently, questioning my relationships ... do they really like me? or just tolerate me? ... and I really going to be a good FNP? ... am I a good mom? why do I feel like all I do is fuss at the kids? ... when was the last time I told Eric I like him?

I don't know why I have such doubts...concerns with self-worth...is it related to past hurts and failures? is it related to the distance between me and the friends I wish to spend just even an hour with? hard to know ... but I do know one thing

"I am wanted, I am loved."

Maybe not always here on earth, but God wants me and God loves me for me ...
now to work on always remembering that...

Sunday, June 12, 2011

It's "Growing" Season...

Does there ever come a time when you stop wondering "is this who I am?" ... or is there something i am missing?

I know this doesn't make much sense, but I feel as though I am in a constant state of change - of discovery - of coming to "terms" with who I am and in turn, being comfortable with the expression of that knowledge.

I am:
  • Crystal
  • daughter of Christ
  • and of 2 pretty amazing parents :)
  • wife of the most amazing, handsome :), patient, and forgiving man'
  • mother of 2 children who I am humbled to have
  • student of the art of Family Nurse Practitioner...
  • I tried to eat healthy, live wisely, respecting the environment and the earth God has entrusted to us...
  • I am not able to justify exorbitant costs, etc in the name of "organic" -
  • I believe there is a fine line to toe between spending extra to live a "greener" lifestyle and being wasteful with our finances....I mean, really - why would I spend $1+ an ear of corn just because it is organic when there are thousands of people worldwide who could eat for a week on that $1+ I just spent on something I could get for much less? What is more important -- organic or people???
  • My heart's desire to expand my world view, and that of my children's to places beyond Harrisonburg...I am not going to base my reality on "high school" on "college" ... I want to see God in action, to be a voice to the Nations around me...
  • I choose to not participate in a Bible study with people who can not allow others to experience God in a different way...
  • I do know what I am talking about...I believe in medicine and the potential it has...I choose not to believe in people who believe lies about immunizations and purposefully place their children and those around them at risk for infectious diseases and other complications that are preventable. I choose to not stand by and watch my child suffer needlessly...
  • I let my child learn to self-soothe by allowing them to fuss ... YES I DID, got a problem with it? -- all I have to say is my child has been sleeping through the night since 4 months and since 6 weeks, is YOURS? I am getting sleep, are YOU?
  • My child is not telling me what to do ... while your child lies in their bed plotting their next demand for your time because you have conditioned their internal bodily clock to need a nighttime feeding ...
  • and yes, continuing nighttime feedings and wakings necessitating parental intervention beyond the age of about 6 months DOES in fact mean that you have trained your child to need you to go back to sleep...did you know kids naturally awaken 3-4 times per night ... that is normal, what is NOT normal is your child awakening during the night after about 6 months of age and not being able to go back to sleep on their own...
  • I am so very tired of people who have such little compassion for those around them...I mean, really?? aka '- if you are at a party and it comes up that everyone at said party is going on said trip save one person who everyone knows wasn't invited on said trip..then why the ??? would you continue to discuss this trip unmercifully for the next 10 minutes?!?!? in front of that person?!?
  • ps - next time you go to buy that super expensive freaky organic corn at the market, just because it is organic...hope you think about someone (maybe even in the very same neighborhood as you) who might not even have enough money to buy one green bean for their supper this very evening.
ok, needed venting out of my system for a bit...so glad to have this little space of web to be able to spill my thoughts out in a "safe" environment...

Friday, May 20, 2011

Yes, I even amaze myself!

Ok, so I just made the most amazing chicken curry dish ever! ok, maybe not ever but :) ...

2 cups water
1/4 cup chunky peanut butter
1/4 cup heavy whipping cream
carrots, peas, potatoes, chicken "to taste"
Namya curry paste (if local, I got it at the Asain Market behind Taste of Thai)
salt, pepper, 1 tsp cumin if desired

Boil all of the above together till veggies soft and chicken cooked. Add heavy whipping cream in last 3-5 minutes of cook time.

Serve over rice, pasta, or by itself with grilled Tandori Naan (Stonefire brand sold at Martin's is amazing!!)

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

It's all about ME!

I was recently reminded, that maybe...just maybe, there ARE some people out there who actually still read my blog?!!? (thanks Jenn, Jeannette, Rae, Kendra :) )....
It compelled me to thoughts of...what am I posting on here again? and make me want to clairfy: this blog is my one (?) true indulgence in being selfish...it is MINE...it is all about ME...I can post what I want, say what I want...only God is there to judge and guide my conscience...granted - leaving BIG expectations :)

that being said...some of what I post is for me, to vent, to frustrate, to "get it out" ... it is "myspace".

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Easter Meaning

Christ Has Risen!!!

Let no one caught in sin remain
Inside the lie of inward shame
But fix our eyes upon the cross
And run to Him who showed great love
And bled for us
Freely You've bled for us

Christ is risen from the dead
Trampling over death by death
Come awake, come awake
Come and rise up from the grave
Christ is risen from the dead
We are one with Him again
Come awake, come awake
Come and rise up from the grave

Beneath the weight of all our sin
You bowed to none but heaven's will
No scheme of hell, no scoffer's crown
No burden great can hold You down
In strength You reign
Forever let Your church proclaim

O death, where is your sting?
O hell, where is your victory?
O church, come stand in the light
The glory of God has defeated the night

O death, where is your sting?
O hell, where is your victory?
O church, come stand in the light
Our God is not dead
He's alive! He's alive!

Christian lyrics - CHRIST HAS RISEN LYRICS - MATT MAHER

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

you make me smile...





life lessons? are they for me...or "the kid??"

I am exhausted...Eric went to work early this morning because he needs to take off early today for an appointment, and he is required to make up all hours missed....

Ky is awake...at 630....HOW DO I GET HIM TO STAY IN HIS BED TILL AT LEAST 7 or LATER?!?!

This is my life lesson for the day - you can rest assured I will be studying this, googling this, desperately searching for ideas of ways to teach my son this life commandment called "Thou shalt LOVE your sleep and NEVER intrude on mommy's early morning quiet time..."

Perhaps it is better called, "Thou shalt daily, hourly, minutely, secondly...ask God for patience" :)

either way, it is my newest life lesson...

Saturday, April 16, 2011

cheap hotdogs

* Oscar Meyer SELECT Turkey hotdogs -

Walmart price $1.97
Coupon available $1.00 off 1

Final price = $0.97



Sites I visit

Here are some "Help me figure out how to save" sites I frequent to do a lot of the grunt work in couponing for me :)

* www.thecouponcents.blogspot.com
* www.blessedbybargains.blogspot.com
* www.moneysavingmom.com -- great coupon database so you can search to see if a particular coupon is out there
* www.iheartriteaid.com
* www.iheartcvs.com

These all provide a breakdown of the weekly sales, potential coupon match-ups and potential deal ideas!


what am i doing?

recently, I have been challenged to save money...

with the bankruptcy of the company Eric was working for, and related wages owed - to the tune of a lot ... to the change of Eric's job (a blessing for sure, but still a lower income with added insurance expense) ... to being in school and needing to take more days off the daycare to get the clinical hours in. Finances are tight, but God PROVIDES!

So, I have decided to endeavor on a journey in the world of couponing...now, before I get much farther - please let me clarify, that I have no ambitions, desire or want to be a so called "extreme couponer" - you know those that buy 1000's of the same item in one shopping trip just to "grow their stockpile," but to never use...nope, not for me - that hoarding behavior truly causes me grief...

No - my simple goal and ambition is to "bless and be blessed" - meaning, I am blessed to be able to use coupons - I am blessed by the coupons, the companies that provide them, the stores that accept them, the sales personnel that work with me to use them, the product that they buy, the fulfillment of our needs and the money that I save...I am able to bless...One of the hardships for Eric and I in all of this, is the fact we are "unable to give financially to others" as freely as we want ... God has provided this ability in me to be able to bless others - I am able to get useful products for either very cheap and/or free - body wash, deodorant, shampoo, make-up, soap, toothpaste, mouthwash, toothbrushes, air fresheners, facial cleansers, and food: cereal, milk, eggs, yogurt, vegetables, bread, and more....

Preparing a big box of "free" to give away brings satisfaction and meaning...it gives us a sense of purpose and community in God's kingdom...

We are blessed with abundance and wish to bless others ... are you in need? do you know one in need? let me know!

I may try to start posting easy ways for you too, to bless others - with free and/or very cheap things...

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Louis Giglio: How Great is our God Part 1


An amazing sermon which WILL change your view of God!

Louis Giglio: How Great is our God Part 2

Louis Giglio: How Great is our God Part 3

Louis Giglio: How Great is our God Part 5

Friday, January 28, 2011

20 Winters - Besides Daniel - For Andrew Millette

Gordon Mote - Don't Miss The Glory

In Honor & Memory

Tuesday, Eric and I received a phone call with news you never want to hear....
A good friend of ours had died unexpectedly and suddenly of a heart attack while exercising with his fiancée...
He was only 28 ...
We of course are shocked...grieved... and reminded.
Life is a small blimp in eternity.
We are blissfully unaware of the end of our days - only God knows the number, the circumstance.
We are to live our lives to honor and to please Him - to bring glory to his name - to live in AWE and SPEECHLESSNESS at what he has surrounded us with in our life -
Andrew, you were an amazing friend and a challenger to many - you lived your faith whole-heartedly and you were a faithful friend....You ARE missed, but as many have said - the same arms which welcomed you home, are holding us all now .... God knew your leaving would grieve many, but He also KNOWS your impact will TOUCH many!
Welcome home Andrew!

Don't Let Me Miss The Glory

VERSE 1
In the view from the mountains
There's a story to be told
In the crashing of the ocean
There's a power that no man will ever hold

All the stars in the Heavens
Decorate Your handiwork
And like a mighty choir
They've come to celebrate Your worth

CHORUS
Don't let me miss the glory
Don't let me miss the grace
All creation is singing
To the honor of Your name

Don't let me miss the wonder
Don't let me miss the grand design
And the lightning and the thunder
Lord open up my eyes
Don't let me miss the glory

VERSE 2
In the cry of a baby
In the laughter of love
In the dance of the faithful
you will find the greatness of our God above

In the prayer of the righteous
In the beauty of Your grace
In a brand new morning's mercy
All your memories of my sin have been erased

REPEAT CHORUS TWICE

Don't let me miss the glory

Saturday, January 15, 2011

One Heartbeat at a Time

You're up all night with a screaming baby
You run all day at the speed of life
And every day you feel a little bit less
Like the beautiful woman you are

So you fall into bed when you run out of hours
And you wonder if anything worth doing got done
Oh, maybe you just don't know
Or maybe you've forgotten

You, you are changing the world
One little heartbeat at a time
Making history with every touch and every smile
Oh, you, you may not see it now
But I believe that time will tell
How you, you are changing the world
One little heartbeat at a time

With every "I know you can do it"
Every tear that you kiss away
So many little things that seem to go unnoticed
They're just like the drops of rain over time
They become a river

And you, you are changing the world
One little heartbeat at a time
Making history with every touch and every smile
Oh, you, you may not see it now
But I believe that time will tell
How you, you are changing the world
One little heartbeat at a time

You're beautiful
You're beautiful
How you're changing the world
You're changing the world

You, you are changing the world
One little heartbeat at a time
Making history with every touch and every smile
Oh, you, you may not see it now
But I believe that time will tell
How you, you are changing the world
Oh, I believe that you
You are changing the world
One little heartbeat
At a time

And you're changing the world
~ Steven Curtis Chapman ~

Thursday, January 6, 2011

the long awaited 2010 newsletter!

Recently, I have challenged myself to FINISH tasks I have either started…or have started in my head but never put to paper…

This year, I was GOING to be on time! I was going to have my cute little family pictured, written about, stamped and mailed out to you in time for some light Christmas reading before Christmas….then I was hit upside with a good dose of reality and common sense! And hence you are getting this newsletter in electronic form and less than one week before Christmas! (or now that it is after Christmas, let’s try for a few days before this year is OVER?!?!?)

I consol myself by giving myself the title of “green, tree hugger, environmentalist, conservationist, postal service demiser, technology advocate, good steward of finances….,” need I go on?

This year has brought joy, challenges, frustrations and new loves. We have grown, in more ways than one J, and found ourselves challenged to discover what it means to live within God’s plan for our lives. Life has not been easy this year, but we would not trade the lessons, happenings, and memories for anything!

Eric:

Eric continues to work for Blosser Lighting Designs in Harrisonburg. He is the sole man on the job now, and is learning many new aspects of the job. He is enjoying seeing the “lights” of his work and feeling more confident in suggesting ideas and solutions to lighting problems. Eric also finished his third season as assistant coach for Eastern Mennonite High School Varsity Boys Soccer. His boys made it to States this year, sadly losing in the first round. But we are proud of them!! Eric is enjoying the challenge and finds himself wishing he was still actively playing IN the game! We also enjoyed the 2010 World Cup matches from South Africa…Eric was in LOVE with the fact that one of Ky’s favorite things was to watch soccer with daddy! Ky always made sure everyone had their soccer ball in hand to watch the big games! Other activities for Eric include: being Kaide’s current favorite J, working on his EMT CE’s, lots of projects around the house, including working on our back deck, teaching Ky soccer, experimenting with home composting and “gardening,” and holding the fort together!

Crystal:

Crystal is staying busy being, well, busy! We are blessed that she is able to be home full time with the kids this year. She is also doing home daycare, keeping one full time little boy and three part time kids. It is a challenge for her to keep up with all the personalities! But we are glad it gives Kyan and Kaide a chance to socialize with peers. Crystal is also continuing on her journey towards her Family Nurse Practitioner license. She recently completed her semester and is looking forward to starting clinical experiences in acute care in the spring! Her ultimate dream continues to be to work in a women’s health setting that incorporates care of women from early adulthood to one-two years post partum with pediatric/neonatal care. Finding time to complete studies has been a challenge, but thankfully Eric enjoys learning the information as much as Crystal does! Other activities for Crystal include: finding new ways to help Ky stay busy, cleaning and organizing the house, scrapbooking, sewing, and doing other crafty things as time allows, continuing to help out her former boss with small tasks around the office, and more! Her goals for the new year include a hopefully scrapbooking “catch-up” weekend, and perhaps some ventures into the business of crafting?? We shall see!

Kyan:

Kyan is 2 ½ and quite the little guy!! He is always learning, always moving and ALWAYS EATING! He continues to amaze us with his talents, his energy and his knowledge. Kyan’s memory is outstanding, often remembering things from months ago. He loves the game Memory and is mommy and daddy’s “go to” to find whatever it is that WE lost! He wants to be just like his daddy, copying EVERYTHING he does! Ky exercises with daddy, shovels snow, runs, plays soccer, always wants to go to work with daddy. Ky loves the soccer field, and “his boys.” We, ok maybe mostly Eric, are thrilled that Ky gets to grow up around the game. Kyan continues to adore his sister, although he is realizing that she is now of the age where she wants to be just like Kyan! This is bringing new challenges as Ky is needing to learn what can be shared and what, as he calls it, “is dangerous.” Ky’s vocabulary and word choice brings many smiles to our house, including: “different else,” “Mommy, I’m a handful!”, “Don’t worry about it,” “Jeepers,” “Oh my nud-ness,” “Taide,” and so many more... We, as his parents, are challenged daily with being creative with his busy little mind! His generous and compassionate spirit, are character traits we hope to strengthen and encourage. His servant attitude and desire to learn are refreshing. His eagerness to learn, however, keeps us hopping, and challenges us to not be short-tempered. Pray God daily reminds us and graces us with creativity to encourage his exploration of the world versus allowing him to get bored and thus in trouble!

Kaide:

Kaide, sweet Kaide. Now almost 10 months, Kaide joined our family March 12, 2010 at 1:52 pm. She was 7 lbs, 9 oz and 19 inches long. If we could have just one word to describe our daughter, joyful, comes to our minds. She is a pleasant baby, excellent sleeper (sleeping through the night since 6 weeks!), active, happy, and snuggly little girl. Kaide adores her big brother and no one can make her giggle quite as much as he can! Her smile is contagious and she loves to shower us all with it! Crawling, cruising, and even standing on her own for a few seconds now, she won’t surprise us if she is walking by the end of the year! Her current favorites include her Anamalz, her Ellie, pacifier, Kyan, da-da, and all sorts of Gerber Graduate Puffs! She makes us laugh with her dramatics, she is a very sensitive child and often small things seem like a crisis (ie – small bumps, taking medicine, insults, etc) … we have to be mindful to not give in and to laugh a little, because her “pouty, put out” face is just so adorable and hard to resist!! We are constantly amazed at the similarities and the differences between our kids, and have to remind ourselves not to compare! Although, daddy does secretly hope Kaide is as enthralled with soccer as he and Ky are! And, Crystal speaking here, although daddy adamantly denies the charges, a certain little girl DEFINETLY has her da-da wrapped tightly around her little fingers! I know we ALL love Kaide snuggles!

Both kids LOVE having Aunt Net live right downstairs! Ky always wants to “go to Aunt Net’s house,” perhaps because of the never-ending supply of olives and marshmallows?? Or the way she spoils him with packing peanuts, scrambled eggs with CHEESE, and special Aunt Net toys?? Kaide loves the extra snuggles and attention she gets too J.

Saba:

The 5th addition to our home came in the form of Saba, our Morkie (Maltese, Yorkie mix) puppy who joined us at the end of October. Crystal has wanted a dog for a long time now and finally Eric agreed we could give it a try! Saba is Swahili for “seven.” Eric challenged Crystal to come up with a Swahili name for the dog – Crystal chose Saba because it took her 7 years to convince Eric we needed a puppy in our lives! While this puppy stage has been quite the learning experience, we are enjoying this stage and love watching Saba & Charlie (Saba’s brother who is Aunt Net’s dog, gotten at the same time), play and tear around the house chasing each other and their tails! Both kids LOVE the dogs and Ky is finally overcoming some of his fears of animals!

The coming of the New Year has brought the classic reminder of “New Year’s Resolutions” and the challenges those bring. We find ourselves hopeful in our aspirations for this New Year, and leave you with the challenge to find 1-2 things in your own life to “improve” on! Our list includes: finding new and creative meal plans with the food we preserved this summer, simplifying our life (including giving away our excess), focusing on quality time as a family, discovering how we can “Speak to Nations,” and challenging ourselves continue changing what we can in our daily lives to be better stewards of God’s gifts to us (the earth, those around us, our finances, our home, our kids, each other, etc.). Crystal is challenging herself to find something everyday which makes her feel like an adult! Be it a cleaning project, doing my hair, wearing nice earrings or clothes, doing a craft project or simply taking a moment to herself…hard challenge in this life of little fingers and toes that she currently lives in! We are also encouraged to grow as a couple, spiritually and in relationship together. As we approach the start of our 7th year of marriage in May, we challenge ourselves to not see it as the proverbial “hardest” year of marriage, and instead are committed to making it an AMAZING year, no matter what journey we may encounter. That being said, we are excited for what God has in store this year, 2011!

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you all!

Eric, Crystal, Kyan and Kaide

Enjoy some pictures of our year, in reverse order, December 10 to January 10 since blogger won't let me change them!




caught in the act of chocolate chip cookies...Nov 10
Thomas!





photo by Jeannette
world cup 2010!


5th anniversary trip - falling off rock to get in picture!
Ky turns 2!! April 17



Kaide Eileen!

First night in big boy bed, January 10


Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Challenged by God's Love

Recently I have been challenged by God's love and "putting things into perspective."
The other day, Ky was having a major meltdown and refused to come give me kisses and hugs goodnight. he would not tell me he loved me. I was heartbroken, but knew I could not force him to do these actions. He had to come to me, willingly, wantingly. Just like we need to approach God. God hurts for our attention when we stubbornly refuse to give it to Him.

Someone recently made the statement that they did not want to let their child "cry-it-out", and while that is completely their choice to make and live with, I am challenged by what letting a child "cry-it-out" means to me.

For me, it is a picture of Christ's love. Choosing to let Ky "cry-it-out" in efforts to teach him to self-soothe himself, was one of the harder moments of parenting for Eric and I. We were desperate, we were selfish for our sleep, and most of all, we loved Kyan too much to let him continue to have sleepless nights, poor sleeping habits, and the inability to self-soothe.

God never said parenting would be easy - He modeled this for us in His own "Father-Son" relationship. He choose to let His son DIE, He gave up His son to US, to the earth for a while - He did this because of love - because we too are HIS children and He loves us that much! God does not force us to love Him, He allows us to hurt Him, to cause Him indescribable pain, because He wants us to WANT HIM! to love Him!! God doesn't force us into submission, taking the easy way - God could choose to have us all love Him and be happy ever after, but instead He does what is best for us - He allows us to make our choices, so as a result, we desire Him because we CHOOSE HIM!

Parenting is HARD! But, like God choses to do what is best for us, versus what we think is best or what the easiest route would be, we too sometimes have to make hard choices for our children. We have to do these things so they will learn how to make the right choices - how to chose Christ. We have to model the Father's love.

There is nothing wrong with choosing to allow your child to "cry-it-out." You must do what is right for your child, what works.
With Ky, we tried so many things to no avail. He wanted mommy, He needed to learn.
He cried it out, and as a result, both He and We learned more about God's comfort, love and presence. (He learned this as we have been able to reinforce God's presence even in the still darkness of night and to hear Ky say, Jesus is with me.)

good ANY time!!


thanks to Eric's aunt, our family has a new favorite ANYTIME food...
Beef Barley Soup

when it looks this amazing and colorfulin the prep stages, how can it not be good??
to make:
Fill soup pot 3/4 full with a half chicken stock, half beef stock mix
Add 1 cup barley (soaked overnight), 1 lb ground deer (or beef) - cooked
saute onions, carrots, celery and garlic in 1-2 Tbsp Olive oil
Add to soup pot
Add salt, pepper, basil and parsley to taste
cook 1 hour on med - low
During last 20 min of cooking, add 1 cup small pasta (pastina, stars, abc's, etc)

Serve :)